Leave it to me have tons of stuff to say today when most people are having a wordless Wednesday post.
I've been pretty busy the last few days, if no where else but in my mind. My mind is always working, thinking and planning and finally I put some action behind it.
Work: I am so thrilled that my job is getting better. I LOVE my job- it has amazing people, amazing perks, and I love being in higher ed but it is so slow. My department and my position is new so they are still figuring out exactly what I will do which leaves me spending 90% of my day doing nothing. Getting paid for doing nothing begins to suck after about 1 week. I've been taking on other tasks and helping out other offices and finally they have found more tasks for me and I am super excited. It is still not a lot of work but at least they are beginning to recognize my talents and capabilities and assigning me duties accordingly. I've been in prayer about my job and I really don't want to look for something else and it is looking more and more like I won't have to.
Church: I am struggling with church. Sunday I sat on the phone and attempted to get my Pastor to go along with my reasons why I was going to stay in bed and be lazy. Needless to say, I ended up at church and as always enjoyed it and received a much needed message. My church has lost its spark and I know I need to find another one. I am not growing in the way that I need to. I've been at my church since elementary school and it is my second home. The people there are family; they have been there for me every step of the way and I can't imagine seeing them every week. My Pastor is my best friend, there isn't any thing we can't or haven't talked about. I have grown so much in working with him one on one and I will always cherish that- but I need more. To make matters worse, my Pastor is moving home to NC next summer. I can't imagine another Pastor in the pulpit, nor do I ever wanna go through the drama and stress of finding a Pastor again. Been there and done that.
The church has grown stagnant. People would rather continue to watch our numbers dwindle instead of agreeing to some changes. I have worked so very hard in attempts to do what God would have our church do but there is always opposition. We've gone from the business of saving souls to just running a church and I know that is not my calling. I want to be at a church with active thriving ministries. I don't want to sit for hours in meetings and walk away with no direction, no solutions, no actions. Every now and again I want to be able to just witness and worship and not work quite so hard. I am so torn up about leaving but I know that I have to. I've never had to look for a church and I don't even know where to start.
Family:
Grannies 80th birthday plans are coming along. I have the food set, the photographer and last is coming up with a decoration/color scheme. I already know I am going to be annoyed by everyone when it comes to getting setup and how the party is gonna go- because people can't just let things flow.
My mother moves into a new place at the end of the month and though she hasn't come out and asked I know she thinks I'll be right there moving her junk cause she has told my sister so. I have moved every year since 2001 and I am tired of moving- plus I have plans. It isn't fair that she didn't make my brother take his stuff to storage before he went back to school but now she expects us to take it. Won't be happening!!
My sisters is in embarking on a new step in her relationship and I am so excited for her. I am so prayerful that everything will work out just the way she wants it too. My babies love her guy and I am grateful for that. She is so in love and so happy; its been way too long since I have seen her like that.
Life:
My superman is sick and I want so much for him to be better. He even sounds terrible and it sucks that I can't do much about it. He also has some things he is trying to work through and it is hard for me to take a step back and just let him deal; I just wanna swoop in and save the day. I just wish that he would put himself first more often. I hate to see him stress. Otherwise, I am loving my superman and how things are going thus far. I am doing much better at communicating this go round and I hope that improves.
I went out with my roommates for the first time the other night and had a blast. My living situation continues to be pretty darn cool though I wish superman and I were closer. All in all, the plans I have set for myself seem to be right on target. The only dilemma I seem to still be facing is grad school. I can't figure out which program to take and what exactly I would like to do after grad school. I don't want to put it off any longer, but I don't want to waste my time on a program that won't help me in the long run. I am still toying with some business ideas...but again no excuses. I am just procrastinating. That is one habit I absolutely have to break.
I want to cut my hair and get a tattoo. I need to narrow down exactly what I want and just got for it like I did with my piercing. I am unhappy with my hair and I need to start fresh, I don't know what I am waiting for since I love the way I look with short hair. I'm thinking something similar to the Rhianna cut since my hair is long on the top anyway. I don't know but a change is definitely in order.
Health:
All is well in the health department except I still can't seem to get off my butt and be more active. I need to lose some pounds, lots of them actually but I can't get motivated to do it. I've been better about what I eat even though that still needs some work.
I ran/walked and did my crunches one day last week and this week so far: NADA. I psych myself up all day and by the time I get home I don't feel like doing anything. I know what I need to do, I know how I need to eat- but I just can't do it. I love to eat, food is my comfort and though I don't really overdo it all the time, I know where I need to change. Eating breakfast is the first thing I need to start doing regularly. I need encouragement in this area cause I am very much at a loss as to why I just can't do what I KNOW I need to do.
I see the body I want to have, I want to be healthy and at goal weight before I even think of having kids, and I just want to be more comfortable with how I look in the mirror. **Sigh** I just need to do it. No excuses. I'll update on my blog so you good readers can hold my lazy butt accountable.
Overall:
I continue to be blessed. I am pleased with my progress and continue to try and make improvements daily. Unless my hormones happen to flash on me I remain happy and optimistic and I am actually beginning to look forward to my 30th birthday. YAYYY!!
I've been pretty busy the last few days, if no where else but in my mind. My mind is always working, thinking and planning and finally I put some action behind it.
Work: I am so thrilled that my job is getting better. I LOVE my job- it has amazing people, amazing perks, and I love being in higher ed but it is so slow. My department and my position is new so they are still figuring out exactly what I will do which leaves me spending 90% of my day doing nothing. Getting paid for doing nothing begins to suck after about 1 week. I've been taking on other tasks and helping out other offices and finally they have found more tasks for me and I am super excited. It is still not a lot of work but at least they are beginning to recognize my talents and capabilities and assigning me duties accordingly. I've been in prayer about my job and I really don't want to look for something else and it is looking more and more like I won't have to.
Church: I am struggling with church. Sunday I sat on the phone and attempted to get my Pastor to go along with my reasons why I was going to stay in bed and be lazy. Needless to say, I ended up at church and as always enjoyed it and received a much needed message. My church has lost its spark and I know I need to find another one. I am not growing in the way that I need to. I've been at my church since elementary school and it is my second home. The people there are family; they have been there for me every step of the way and I can't imagine seeing them every week. My Pastor is my best friend, there isn't any thing we can't or haven't talked about. I have grown so much in working with him one on one and I will always cherish that- but I need more. To make matters worse, my Pastor is moving home to NC next summer. I can't imagine another Pastor in the pulpit, nor do I ever wanna go through the drama and stress of finding a Pastor again. Been there and done that.
The church has grown stagnant. People would rather continue to watch our numbers dwindle instead of agreeing to some changes. I have worked so very hard in attempts to do what God would have our church do but there is always opposition. We've gone from the business of saving souls to just running a church and I know that is not my calling. I want to be at a church with active thriving ministries. I don't want to sit for hours in meetings and walk away with no direction, no solutions, no actions. Every now and again I want to be able to just witness and worship and not work quite so hard. I am so torn up about leaving but I know that I have to. I've never had to look for a church and I don't even know where to start.
Family:
Grannies 80th birthday plans are coming along. I have the food set, the photographer and last is coming up with a decoration/color scheme. I already know I am going to be annoyed by everyone when it comes to getting setup and how the party is gonna go- because people can't just let things flow.
My mother moves into a new place at the end of the month and though she hasn't come out and asked I know she thinks I'll be right there moving her junk cause she has told my sister so. I have moved every year since 2001 and I am tired of moving- plus I have plans. It isn't fair that she didn't make my brother take his stuff to storage before he went back to school but now she expects us to take it. Won't be happening!!
My sisters is in embarking on a new step in her relationship and I am so excited for her. I am so prayerful that everything will work out just the way she wants it too. My babies love her guy and I am grateful for that. She is so in love and so happy; its been way too long since I have seen her like that.
Life:
My superman is sick and I want so much for him to be better. He even sounds terrible and it sucks that I can't do much about it. He also has some things he is trying to work through and it is hard for me to take a step back and just let him deal; I just wanna swoop in and save the day. I just wish that he would put himself first more often. I hate to see him stress. Otherwise, I am loving my superman and how things are going thus far. I am doing much better at communicating this go round and I hope that improves.
I went out with my roommates for the first time the other night and had a blast. My living situation continues to be pretty darn cool though I wish superman and I were closer. All in all, the plans I have set for myself seem to be right on target. The only dilemma I seem to still be facing is grad school. I can't figure out which program to take and what exactly I would like to do after grad school. I don't want to put it off any longer, but I don't want to waste my time on a program that won't help me in the long run. I am still toying with some business ideas...but again no excuses. I am just procrastinating. That is one habit I absolutely have to break.
I want to cut my hair and get a tattoo. I need to narrow down exactly what I want and just got for it like I did with my piercing. I am unhappy with my hair and I need to start fresh, I don't know what I am waiting for since I love the way I look with short hair. I'm thinking something similar to the Rhianna cut since my hair is long on the top anyway. I don't know but a change is definitely in order.
Health:
All is well in the health department except I still can't seem to get off my butt and be more active. I need to lose some pounds, lots of them actually but I can't get motivated to do it. I've been better about what I eat even though that still needs some work.
I ran/walked and did my crunches one day last week and this week so far: NADA. I psych myself up all day and by the time I get home I don't feel like doing anything. I know what I need to do, I know how I need to eat- but I just can't do it. I love to eat, food is my comfort and though I don't really overdo it all the time, I know where I need to change. Eating breakfast is the first thing I need to start doing regularly. I need encouragement in this area cause I am very much at a loss as to why I just can't do what I KNOW I need to do.
I see the body I want to have, I want to be healthy and at goal weight before I even think of having kids, and I just want to be more comfortable with how I look in the mirror. **Sigh** I just need to do it. No excuses. I'll update on my blog so you good readers can hold my lazy butt accountable.
Overall:
I continue to be blessed. I am pleased with my progress and continue to try and make improvements daily. Unless my hormones happen to flash on me I remain happy and optimistic and I am actually beginning to look forward to my 30th birthday. YAYYY!!
